Tuesday, April 14, 2015

04.13.2015

I want my parents to see me healthy. I talked to my mom today and she seemed so disappointed. She wondered how she missed for so long that I was sick. 

That right there made me so upset. Not at her but at myself. I want to be healthy, I really do. Maybe I'm not doing EVERYTHING possible to be healthy enough but I'm trying. 

I get overwhelmed though but I've got to push through this to get my health. I'm working on tapering myself off of narcotics, losing weight, managing my diabetes and finding a medication to keep me in remission with Crohn's Disease. 

Man mom. I've let you down. You had big dreams for me and I can't even get healthy enough to work or finish college.  I'm so sorry. 

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