Dear 2014

I first need to figure out to whom/Whom I am writing this letter to.  Is it to myself at the end of 2014 or am I writing this to God?  I’m not quite sure yet and I’ll probably figure it out halfway through.

Dear 2014,

2013 was rough.  I didn’t realize how rough 2013 was until I saw people posting their Facebook statuses and Instagram posts about all their achievements from 2013.  I’m not hating; I’m truly happy for people who had a prosperous 2013 and I hope your 2014 is even better!  But a small piece of me wishes that I accomplished something major--- like one of my major dreams... that time might come.  

I started this year off wrong.  I really did.  I can’t pretend like I didn’t because I know I did.  I don’t regret it because that would be stupid; I don’t really do regrets.  I just know how I’ll start my 2015 off.  Where do I want to be by 2015?  That’s such a major question.  I feel like I can try and answer it all day long and then my health will screw it all up. Crohn’s Disease. Messing up Brie’s life since 2007. Lol.  But I have got to change my mindset.  I know that I will no longer allow my illnesses to dictate how my emotions are working or how I feel about life.  By the end of 2014 I want to have pushed myself mentally.

 Well Brie, what does that look like?  I understand that I’ll have days where I am in physical pain or nauseated and I won’t be able to do much but the next day that I feel better I want to pop up and seize the day. I can’t afford to let Monday’s pain slow my Tuesday down.

How will you seize the day?  That’s a hard one.  My biggest problem over the past years that I’ve been sick is that I try to enjoy my good days.  It isn’t bad that I want to enjoy my good days but I still have business to handle. I need to prioritize in a way that will benefit me in the long term. 

2014 Priorities:

1.       My relationship with God
a.       Honoring and obeying Him
b.      Following through with the visions that He gave me
c.       Getting involved with the Body of Christ
d.      Dedicating time to spend with Him [daily]
e.      Learning His Word and His ways
2.       My Health [control what I can control]
a.       Everyday won’t be great.
b.      Eat right when I can.
c.       Workout when I can.
d.      Stay positive.
3.       School
a.       I hate UGA.
b.      Contact these professors and do whatever work they say I need to do so they can get me my diploma. [[Will it still say 2013? #QTNA]]
c.       Look at graduate school programs.
d.      Take the GRE.
e.      Get in somebody’s classroom.

I usually add something in there about friends and family but 2014 is about me.  I know that seems crazy but you have to understand that I’ve been sick.  I need to focus on me.  I need to put my own oxygen mask on first and then help others.  J

Honestly, at the end of 2014, I want to be the best Brie that I can be. [hence BrieYourBest]  I don’t want to feel like I’m comparing myself to others.  I want to have taken advantage of every single day that I am not sick.  I want to have progressed academically and be on my way to being the best Elementary Teacher that I can be.  I want to be overly optimistic.  I still want to be giving.  I want to fit my cute clothes again. BAHAHAHA but seriously. I want to have whatever hairstyle that I like [whether it is long or short or purple or black].  I want all of my friends to be a born again Christian.  I’m not saying I want new friends.  I’m not saying I don’t want new friends.  I just want all of my friends to come to God and have eternal security.  I want to pour out my heart to God every day and listen to Him even more.  I want to be in His perfect will.  I need to be in His perfect will.  I’ll do whatever it takes to be in His perfect will.


Is it selfish? Is it selfish to say that I would love to meet my husband by the end of 2014?  Is it selfish to say that I would love to be in remission from all illnesses by the end of 2014? Is it selfish to say that I would love to be financially independent by the end of 2014?  Is it selfish to say that I want to move out of my parents’ home by 2014? 

Love,

Brittanie-Claire A. Johnson

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