I first need to figure out to whom/Whom I am writing this
letter to. Is it to myself at the end of
2014 or am I writing this to God? I’m
not quite sure yet and I’ll probably figure it out halfway through.
Dear 2014,
2013 was rough. I
didn’t realize how rough 2013 was until I saw people posting their Facebook
statuses and Instagram posts about all their achievements from 2013. I’m
not hating; I’m truly happy for people who had a prosperous 2013 and I hope
your 2014 is even better! But a small piece of me wishes that I
accomplished something major--- like one of my major dreams... that time
might come.
I started this year off wrong. I really did.
I can’t pretend like I didn’t because I know I did. I don’t regret it because that would be
stupid; I don’t really do
regrets. I just know how I’ll start my
2015 off. Where do I want to be by 2015? That’s such a major question. I feel like I can try and answer it all day
long and then my health will screw it all up. Crohn’s Disease. Messing up Brie’s life since 2007. Lol. But I have got to change my mindset. I know that I will no longer allow my
illnesses to dictate how my emotions are working or how I feel about life. By the
end of 2014 I want to have pushed myself mentally.
Well Brie, what does that look like? I understand that I’ll have days where I am
in physical pain or nauseated and I won’t be able to do much but the next day
that I feel better I want to pop up and seize the day. I can’t afford to let
Monday’s pain slow my Tuesday down.
How will you seize
the day? That’s a hard one. My biggest problem over the past years that I’ve
been sick is that I try to enjoy my good days.
It isn’t bad that I want to enjoy my good days but I still have business
to handle. I need to prioritize in a way that will benefit me in the long
term.
2014 Priorities:
1. My relationship with God
a.
Honoring and obeying Him
b.
Following through with the visions that He gave
me
c.
Getting involved with the Body of Christ
d.
Dedicating time to spend with Him [daily]
e.
Learning His Word and His ways
2.
My
Health [control what I can control]
a.
Everyday won’t be great.
b.
Eat right when I can.
c.
Workout when I can.
d.
Stay positive.
3. School
a.
I hate UGA.
b.
Contact these professors and do whatever work
they say I need to do so they can get me my diploma. [[Will it still say 2013? #QTNA]]
c.
Look at graduate school programs.
d.
Take the GRE.
e.
Get in somebody’s classroom.
I usually add
something in there about friends and family but 2014 is about me. I know that seems crazy but you have to understand
that I’ve been sick. I need to focus on
me. I need to put my own oxygen mask on
first and then help others. J
Honestly, at the end of 2014, I want to be the best Brie
that I can be. [hence BrieYourBest] I don’t want to feel like I’m comparing
myself to others. I want to have taken
advantage of every single day that I am not sick. I want to have progressed academically and be
on my way to being the best Elementary Teacher that I can be. I want to be overly optimistic. I still want to be giving. I want to fit my cute clothes again. BAHAHAHA
but seriously. I want to have whatever hairstyle that I like [whether it is
long or short or purple or black]. I want all of my friends to be a born again
Christian. I’m not saying I want new
friends. I’m not saying I don’t want new
friends. I just want all of my friends to come to God and have eternal security. I want to pour out my heart to God every day
and listen to Him even more. I want to
be in His perfect will. I need to be in
His perfect will. I’ll do whatever it takes to be in His perfect will.
Is it selfish? Is
it selfish to say that I would love to meet my husband by the end of 2014? Is it selfish to say that I would love to be
in remission from all illnesses by the end of 2014? Is it selfish to say that I
would love to be financially independent by the end of 2014? Is it selfish to say that I want to move out
of my parents’ home by 2014?
Love,
Love,
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