You are here. I can't stop you from coming. I cannot delay the inevitable. August 17th 2015 has rolled around and you're here. So guess what? I'll embrace you. I'm sure that 26 won't be 365 days of euphoria but I'll take it all in stride and try my best to never complain.
See, 25 was very difficult. I battled depression. I kicked Crohn's Disease butt. I learned how to manage diabetes (the jury is still out on whether it is Type 1 or Type 2). I struggled with my Christianity. I learned how to be a caregiver. I had TWO surgeries in ONE month. I persevered. I persevered. I persevered. And now, here comes 26...
I was nervous about you coming. I mean, I lost sleep just letting my mind wander over you. I kept telling myself that if I made it to 26 then the depression would magically go away- it hasn't. :) I thought if I make it to 26 then that epiphany of me being an adult would disappear- it hasn't. :) But, that's okay because you are here and I have a few friends who didn't get to meet you. So, I'm forever grateful that we have met.
26, please bring some amazing memories. 26, kick 25s butt. 26, this is the year that we cling to The Lord God Almighty like our soul depends on it (because it does.)
26, let us get out of the house more because 25 didn't. 25 was too focused on regaining her health and then when she got it, she had to fight depression, fear and laziness. 26, you are HEALTHY! 26, you are assertive. 25 was way too concerned about hurting other people's feelings so she got walked over. Remember that.
26, I'm excited to spend these next 364 days with you. I have a few goals that would be amazing to conquer. I actually have 26 goals. 😉
26, I don't want to complain or spend too much time thinking about the hardships and trials that 21, 22, 23, 24 and 25 brought BUT I do want to learn from them.
26, let's find love. Not necessarily in someone else but within ourselves. (Hey, I won't complain if we find it elsewhere as well). 26, let's fight to finish the drill. 26, let's embrace ourselves. 26, let's be lit. And remember, "we weren't supposed to make it past 25, jokes on you, we still alive!"
Love,
Brittanie-Claire Johnson
